how dare we sit quietly

 ha...ahahaha.......so like 2 days after i published my new goals, i. stopped writing. 

naturally, the cause was fire emblem, because fire emblem ALWAYS RUINS MY LIFE!! so this marks my first dry spell of the year, and it wasn't even because i lost motivation or anything! the good news is, i had already gotten so ahead of my goal before that that i don't have a whole lot to catch up on. i'm still playing fe like crazy, but i've managed to calm down enough that i think i can get back into fulfilling my daily writing goals and get that word count back up!! also, spring break is coming up, so :^))))) wish me luck! but also feel free to laugh at me for totally crashing and burning LMAO 

I mean, i'm not specifically tight on money, but it's nice to have some pocket coin every once in a while, especially after the winter season when i've spent everything on presents (and myself, not gonna lie). but i feel like the real issue is do i have the confidence to ask for money in return for my writing?? and more than that, do i have what it takes to meet the deadlines?? and uhh.....most importantly.....would anyone actually commission me???????? i have a super small reader base, and now that i've moved ao3 accounts i've basically lost them all, and all of my followers on tumblr are just mutuals. there's no harm in opening commissions, except maybe to my pride, when nobody commissions me. 

i want to give it a try, especially since it might help me get better at meeting deadlines and churn out more words for the 200k goal of the year, but it's more than likely that nothing will come of it, and i'm not sure if it's worth the energy at this point. i'll have to think about it some more, but maybe sometime in the future when i've put more stuff out and gotten a larger audience i can be a little more optimistic of the results.